I’m afraid to share things about myself and so I figured a good way to get around that was to build my own blog. I have a lot of feelings and emotions that I can’t explain and so I’m hoping that this will teach me how to better communicate the ideas in my head. Also, I want to curate a more personal style. I don’t know who I am or what I want. I’ll keep trying until I do.

In the past few years, I’ve been taking life so seriously and I need to let go. I have internalized the eyes of others and now I can’t see myself without looking through theirs. When I go shopping for clothes, I hear my family. When I’m at the club, I'm scanning for coworkers. When I’m at a random apartment, I worry if my friends will question my location. I’ve been worrying for so long and only to my own detriment. If I was honest (which I never really am), maybe I’d feel more confident in who I am or going to be.

Building this website has brought me so much joy (especially using Aseprite to draw custom buttons). I really hope everyone has the chance to build their own. Please feel free to snoop around (right click -> inspect/view page source). Remember to give credit !!

- beefsnax/kyle